the real reel of reality
reality must have been so mean, yet so real, for the both of us now.
i was hurt, you were hurt, and i know we didn’t want to hurt each other.
things didn’t really work out well, but i know someday, somehow, both of us will be ready to face each other again and be mature to forget this pain that we are feeling right now.
remembering every single moment we had makes my heart so sad, that i end up crying. i tried so hard not to, but i failed…
… and still, im failing..
i still can’t forget how sad i was on the 364th day.
i still can’t forget how stupid i felt upon hearing those words from you…
and now that it’s over…
…i still can’t get over from the fact that WE’re OVER…
*sigh.tears.sigh*
if you think that i have moved on now, well, you are definitely wrong.
ofcourse, i’m still in pain. but i’m fighting real hard to conquer it. a 1-year relationship is not so easy to forget, especially with the person that’s been so perfect to be with the rest of somebody else’s life.
ofcourse, there were regrets. one of those was that we rushed ALOT of things that we should’ve not rushed supposedly. and that was, we didn’t take time to really know each other from the very beginning.
i am sad. because i cannot fulfill the promises i swore to you before, even if i really wanted to…
…because i am not the right one for you.
i am starting over now. it’s been so hard to adjust my life without you. really difficult to live without “die’no” around me to go to caf, to church, to text with, to share with, to cuddle with, and…
… to fall inlove with.
i’m sorry we didn’t make it.
i’m sorry we failed.
thanks for every single thing that you gave me. the little things, the countless memories, and even the limited time and attention that you gave me –everything from you is so well kept and appreciated. i will treasure everything. that’s one thing for sure.
thank you. because if not with you, i will never ever know how it feels like to have a serious relationship and i will never know how much will i love a person that much.
this is reality,
and this pain is its cruelty;
for with every sin, every crap we convey,
there’s this reality that we have to repay.
iloveyou. goodbye.
